Mindful-ness in a Mind-less world…
- curiouslywritten16
- Jul 5
- 24 min read
Updated: Jul 12
Orrrrr…
Seeking PEACE on a PEACE-LESS planet?
HONESTY in a DISHONEST society?
AUTHENTICITY in a INAUTHENTIC “trending” world?
Expanding CONSCIOUSNESS in a less CONSCIOUS humanity?
A list that could be endless; tis’ existing on a atmospheric, rotating ball of energy packed full of duality, i suppose.
Annnnnd…
Can it be achieved?
C’mon now, as of yet I think the audience has an understanding of the core soul essence with who I am within this Earthly experience is fully dipped into CAPRICORN energy; therein exists a massive “belief” that all things are possible. Nothing ever truly impossible.
Although, I could not have personally experienced levels of:
MINDFULNESS, PEACE, HONESTY, AUTHENTICITY + EXPANDED CONSCIOUSNESS
without a blended recipe of the following ingriedients:
Desire. Belief; especially when you are surrounded by other breathing homo sapians that do not also “believe” in that which you do. Ultimately, creating a metaphorically, isolated unchartered island randomly floating through the massive “unknown” abyss. Focus. Practice. Intuition. Quieting the ever so loud ruckus “of the world.” Discernment. Meditation. Grounding. Centering. Positivity. Awareness. Environment. Energy. Efforts. Discipline. Courage. Conscious breathing. Not just the natural without thought: inhale, exhale. Intentional breath. Learning to navigate through the “uncomfortable.” Affirmations. Permission for powerfully validating words to assist in shaping one’s existence. Surrender. Creativity. Action even when there is fear. One small step or lifestyle change at a time. Observation. Sound Healing. Vibration. Frequency. Self-Love. Unconditional love for our existence + participants despite…(harder than one knows). Forgiveness. Laughter. Allowing own personal voice to lead vs. every one else’s.
Personally, an ever so unfolding docket. Truly, I can’t say it enough: I, human am committed to constantly discovering these layers of me—my world. Purpose. Destiny.
Doesn’t start + end.
More so beginning + evolving.
If dabbling in CURIOSITY, here are some practical “starting point” resources (below) that I have curiously fallen into within my particular “spiritual” or “unseen” travels. Ya know, the type of “flight” that may not physically “move” us into a new latitude/longitude yet allegorically shift the “being” of self into new timelines.
for example:
If the only timeline known to a person is the one they were born into that which can consist of an array of things. For some its pure love + traditional structure. For a handful of many others it can be a war zone packed full of abusive words, behaviors that could potentially place an individual into a constant state of “survival mode.” Walking on eggshells. Feelings of unworthiness to even exist. No understanding of safety, home or love. Time passes. Life continues. One survived yet has still only experienced this one state of “being.” The now adult naturally continues the same trends. Not consciously nor on purpose; subconsciously. An unfortunate hamster wheel of repeated cycles. Self-awareness or lack there of, more so existing than fully living, relationships + environments reflecting such.
Until one day there’s an urge. A pull. The biggest sign from the Universe encouraging ya to “get up + try a different way instead…”. Visually, it may look a lot like an “opportunity” of meandering through the woods + stumbling upon two very differing paths. The earthborn already knows what “one” of those directions look like. Most likely unfulfilling but its comfortable—familiar. Mundane? And well, the “other” is quite unknown + will require courage. Extreme level of TRUST within self. Readiness for the “next” chapter which sometimes happens once the person has reached rock bottom from being stuck in that same, repeated chapter for far too long.
When the leap of faith has been taken + the mere mortal steps foot onto the “unknown” path everything else around them “also” responds. Placing on the path everything the “traveler” will need for the Journey. Hunger games-esque. A roaring cheer coming from the “game-makers” stadium.
If ya haven’t watched or read the “Hunger Games” series…highly recommend.
*FREE TRIAL
This my friend, is taking that internal flight. Indulging in a “new” timeline that co-creates with one’s deep rooted desires. It’s not just one shift. It’ll be many. Each one getting better + better. Nothing to rush. Everything is so NEW, why would we want to? And there will be obstacles but every moment up to this point has prepared the traveler to overcome. The energetics of the Universe asking us on each Iron Man-like course “truly, how much does this actually mean to you?”
Be prepared for:
NEW experiences, emotions, feelings, evolutions, developments, connections, opportunities, locations, landmarks, senses, challenges + the wildly beautiful unknown.
And in dual nature any sliver of possibility for your “old life” to pull you back in…requiring us to battle it out for ourselves. The comfort zone does not want us to level up ultimately presenting a series of David + Goliath moments where one may have to vehemently sound off to the ether’s that “nah, that right there ain’t it for me ANYMORE.”
Within the big scheme of things it’s ALL fascinating, honestly.
In this particular timeline, neglect began at birth while physical, emotional, mental abuse @ age 4, “SA” @ age 5. Barely, emerging at age 18. Exhausted but only had a “knowing” of this particular blueprint and it unveiled itself within my personal life, actions, well being, relationships etc. until age 35. I mean, thirty plus years spent hanging out in a warped capsule that was simply not meant for me to remain “stuck” in.
Eventually, if I wanted to experience something completely different, healthier, more elevated I would need to choose to fight my way out of the old way of being that everyone else unfairly inflicted onto me in order to ever enter a new one.
The “crossroads” came on a random week day. Laying in bed, crying, weak unable to find any energy to place my feet on the floor + stand. In the middle of wallowing I heard a loud voice, very father like that said “GET UP, GET YOUR SHOES ON + GET IN THE CAR.” I mean it’s a voice you don’t want to ignore, ya know. So without direction, I the mere mortal did just that.
A drive that landed this worldly participant at a new apartment complex. Disheveled, fragile yet still placing one foot in front of the other. Entered the building. Mumbled enough words. Two days later picked up a key to my new apartment.
There was no plan; just an “opportunity” to choose a different path. I had zero clue about how any of it would look but somewhere deep inside I knew that I was “ready”. From that moment on life hasn’t’ looked like any hamster wheel I could recognize since. Is the adventure perfect as deemed by society? Absolutely not, however is wildly fulfilling for this particular earthly flesh navigating.
Although, being present in the NEW is quite unchartered territory because I never get to see too far ahead—the path itself; every step traveled brings me closer + closer to my personal GOD gifted, original blueprint of desires, purity + hope that was stolen by layers of unfair experiences.
I promise, healing is worth the unknown path forward.
Highly recommend. Big Scale. Little Scale.
Here’s what naturally fell onto the trail when I “consciously” chose the “other” path:
thing number 1
POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS
Words hold energy.
Have Power.
Early on we hear them from our direct environment.
Parents.
Family.
Friends.
School.
Church.
Neighborhood.
etc.
All influenced by many dimensions such as:
the level at which the direct surrounding humanity perceives “life” in that very moment
+ “what” influences their insight
tradition passed from one generation to the next (again based on perception)
belief systems
experiences
generational
For the human listed in the example above, 100% negative, harmful wording was used. Therefore, accidentally stumbling upon a “Positive Mantra” meditation video on the 4th day into that “brand new beginning” (8 years ago) as I was climbing onto the elliptical for the first time in several years was life altering to say the very least.
I listened to this video for 30 minutes + it said things like:
“You are beautiful”
“You are worthy”
“You are strong”
“You will live a happy life”
On REPEAT.
Umm do how? Excuse me, I’m who? I can do what? My brain suddenly leaping into a process of re-wiring…this time around with kindness + positivity.
When I climbed off that elliptical I felt “different.” Lighter. Brighter. Hopeful for better days ahead. Even started believing the mantras. Naturally, I would continue this new habit for the next 30 days—astonishingly, WILD just how much the personal world, mindset, navigation + overcoming developed itself in just those 30 days.
Even more savage when multiplying it by 8 years.
Truly, the act of “living” has never looked the same again.
TRY IT OUT (here’s an exercise):
Open up YouTube (https://www.youtube.com)
Type into search bar “Positive Affirmations”
Close your eyes, let your finger just scroll (don’t peek) + when you “feel” compelled “select” the video by pressing on it
And see what the UNIVERSE chose for you
Listen to it simultaneously to another task less focused: sitting at a desk, working out, cooking dinner, housework etc.
Afterwards, pay attention to how you “feel”…no logical thinking allowed (toss “intellect” out the window for just a small moment of the day…replace it with “feeling” aka intuition)
thing number 2
MEDITATION
Or the act of “intentionally” cultivating, at the very least, 1 hour from the 24 hour life cycle, simply for self.
To QUIET the noise of everything “else.”
“Else” includes:
Earthly Responsibilities: Children, Family, Pets, Bills, Monetary Elevation, Societal Heirarchy, Jobs, Voices, Human Opinions, Love Partnerships etc.
Waking up in our “gifted” day of life being conditioned to automatically “give” away all of “us” to everyone else. The BIBLE says 10%. Maybe just maybe a bigger percentage was designed in taking on the responsibility of developing our own self: mind, body, soul. Give to others what we can + mastering BALANCE within it all.
For example: There’s a pie of 6 slices. Fairness says everyone gets a slice including “self.” However, currently, the society is conditioned to give away all 6 slices + “self” is left with zero. We become drained. We seek outside of “self” for someone to offer a slice. Disappointment ensues. Sadness is worn like a garment.
It truly doesn’t have to be this way.
Expectations of the WORLD (which happens to be a very BIG place). Many like to exist with their hands out vs. putting in the “hard work” for themselves. It’s easy for kind hearted, empathic souls to naturally want to “give, give, give.” And, please don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind giving a little but seems like an injustice for them not to traverse through their own journey of “enlightenment.” Our truest answers lie within. My giving is just a temporary ”band-aid.”
And HEAR our OWN voice.
Admittedly, the process starts off chaotic. Most times our own voice hasn’t had much advantage of being HEARD. It’ll feel overwhelming. Intimidating. Like there’s a swarm waiting to burst through a threshold. Actively visualizing a crammed box full of “thoughts” and suddenly the lid has been lifted. Every one of those notions screaming for AIR. The words living in our head need a physical “actual” place to exist.
For me, its written on paper, in a journal with zero control. I write them as they release themself to me. Embodied with its own emotion. Impact. Color. Meaning. Giving them PURPOSE to exist in my WORLD. Literal puzzle pieces presumably scrambling together the most VITAL puzzle yet. My life.
Becomes less chaotic the more one “practices.”
Mine looks like:
Intentionally pushing “play” on the meditation music of choice.
I discovered my favorite YouTube Artist when the rest of my more conscious journey began 8 years ago. I tried several. I noticed that a lot of them put me in a more “relaxed…I wanna sleep” state of mind which was not productive for my life as a single parent working several jobs. Then I discovered a more upbeat “Shamanic-esque” tempo that locked me into my “ethereal” focus while simultaneously energizing me in the most productive ways.
Earthy. Native American. Natural. Intentional Vibes.
I enjoy doing this thing where I call out to the Universe + say “hey, I LOVE YOU + THANK YOU what do you feel is needed for my day today?” I intentionally connect into my “intuition,” roll my finger across the many videos until it feels the urge to “stop.”
Then push “PLAY.”
The one I have intuitively chosen for this blog post is:
Lift your heart, lift your spirit (15 minute heart chakra meditation)
Pull out my “Intuitive Writing” or “Creative Writing” journal
(I’ve created my own..links below. Journals that have “Positive Mantra’s” headlining the top of each page to serve as encouragement or writing prompts).
CREATIVE WRITING JOURNAL:
INTUITIVE WRITING JOURNAL:
There are many types of journals + planners in a range of colors to choose from. If ya wanna check ‘em out, all products will be listed at my Amazon “Author Page https://www.amazon.com/author/janicakes
Feel free to hit the “follow” + stay up to date on products.
Not being bias or anything but I highly doubt I’ll ever use any other journal or planner ever
I love ‘em
I, then allow myself to step into a “conscious breathing” technique. Intentional DEEP BREATH in. Giving permission for that “breath” to enter the human vessel. Grab a hold of all the noise, anxiety, discomfort + then release (exhale) it to the large universal abyss. Several times. Repeat. Use your Intuition. A feeling of grounded, calm, peaceful energy lets ya know when you’re ready to take on the “next step.”
“Next step” being “Choices:” Intuition asking you to dive into “writing” without any control, thought or logic which radically, enough is much easier said than done. Hence, why people quickly decide that “journaling” just isn’t for them. Which is ok, but I definitely challenge you to consider that it could potentially be related to a deeper meaning within the realms of the inability to surrender. Release control. If one is still feeling restricted, utilizing “tools” to help navigate the meditative, intuitive practice of placing those words onto paper aka the conversation with self, can be helpful.
I have used a variety of different tools such as:
-color pens: red for me equals “root-where it all began.” Pink + Green is love. Different shades mean varying levels. Yellow reppin’ confidence. Orange…Creativity. Blue is communication. Purple…spiritual.
There’s no rules here; ya get to assign your own meanings. #freewill
-stickers; mainly with quotes. motivating, inspiring + happy…at times a necessary push to simply “keep going.” I have a cute little bag that I intuitively dip my fingers into, pull out a quoted sticker + allow the inspirational words to lead my meditation for the day. It seems to always be in alignment. In small ways, adding extraordinary value to the 24 hour cycle we call a “day.”
for this blog the intuitive sticker pull is: “Smile” (a simple word with so much power)
-spiritual + philosophical books. devotionals. The non-denominational “Living Bible.” Quran. Currently reading out of “The Third Testament-Spirit of Truth: The Forerunner, The Guardian, The Book of True Life, Message from Mary” (links below). Cards that have beautiful art designed + created by other fellow spiritual “journey-ers” which I seem to feel the most “connected” + at “home” with. Prolly because, as a kid enduring harsh environments I was able to discover extreme comfort in constantly shuffling a deck of cards. Any dose of anxiety or fear I’d nestle into a corner and shuffle, shuffle, shuffle. Over + over again. Sometimes for hours. Comforting. Satisfying. Existing in the “times before fidget gadgets were invented. What can I say, I”m an 80’s kid.
(Links below of some of my fave books if interested…)
“God Calling” Devotional” (created by two anonymous women who had intentional moments/prayer/convo with God + “intuitively” wrote everything they “received” in the late 1800’s). I discovered this book in 2016 at a book fair in a hospital I was working at. Since then, anytime I indulge, it hits deeply different every time.
“The Third Testament-Spirit of Truth: The Forerunner, The Guardian, The Book of True Life,Message from Mary”: discovered on YouTube by a fellow spiritual “journeyer” back in 2024 I believe. Mind Blowing yet very much in alignment for the path I have “chosen” #freewill.
“The Living Bible”: a BIBLE I discovered while “thrifting” 16 years ago…its VINTAGE charm is what initially drew me in but became a daily “read” for a very long time. The only BIBLE. I’ll ever read out of. Super easy to connect with.
AGAIN, no rules. Whatever feels natural + best. Personal choices. In present day, others do possess a level of audacity that appears to give them permission to establish this for you, but truly they can’t unless you let them. Simultaneously, practicing taking your power back from the crowd that manuvers with such a loud + aggressive audaciousness.
Today, when I encounter those behaviors without hesitation I say “byeeeeeeeee” and never think twice about it. Too simple, now.
thing number 3
CONSCIOUS BREATH WORK
All the time.
Not scheduled.
Anxious.
Fight or Flight.
Overwhelmed.
Anytime one is not feeling PRESENT in the physical body.
Tends to occur in those moments where the earthling has traveled to the past + is dredging up old feelings. Aged memories. Definitely, navigate them BRAVELY but consider breathing yourself back to the safety of this VERY moment.
Or when we get too hyper-focused on the future. The goals. Dreams which are beautiful to have yet the “actions” of manifestation can cause angst. Stay as long as you need but don’t forget to “breathe” yourself back to the “present” so that you can “work” your way to those dreams. “Actively” creating a connective bridge from present to future.
Maybe the very moment is offering an experience that has transcended the human into FEAR + SHOCK. Fight or Flight. Stunned. Inability to move at all. A feeling of defeat. The untrue obsessive thought that shouts way too loudly there’s “no way forward.”
Do me a favor + just breathe.
There will also be seasons as “Captain” of your ship when ya need a game plan but feel overwhelmed about the “thing” that needs navigating. Choosing. Execution. Focus. Determination. Effort.
Promise, conscious breath work has been the cheapest, most resourceful “tool” in the box to streamline me through this trek of life.
For me it looks a bit like this (of course if curiosity ensues you’ll research + develop your own practice):
Anxious. Busy. World spinning extremely fast.
I say “Janis, you’re ok. Take a deep breath in. Hold it. Close eyes (if able). Let the breath find the “trigger.” Hold it inside until the “trigger claw” grabs a hold of as much of it as it can. Visualizing. Repeat. 6-10 inhales + exhales while simultaneously imagining the low vibrational energy existing within my being snatched on up + released within the exhale. Sometimes the breaths are deep. Some are shallow. Depends on the “weight” of the parcel I’m being asked to transmute from heavy, overcoming energy to non-existent. No longer possessing power to exist inside my energetic canvas. Decimated. Annihalated; all with breath.
It’s amazing, actually.
thing number 4
AUTHENTICITY
Existing, ruminating, embodying + getting to know the true, honest self.
Not masked.
Not pretending.
Not playing a role to appease.
The essence of self when no one is around.
Being so FREAKIN’ proud of the REAL “self” whom up to this point is perpetually showing up every single day, no matter what.
“What” pertaining to:
Discomfort. The crowd that may choose to turn the opposite way because they are too embarrassed to associate themselves with you. They are truly not your people. Doesn’t need a conversation. Just a “knowledge is power” type realization. Truly, it can be painful to be bullied by the “society” because you’re not showing up “just like them.”
Arriving + doing it anyways.
Honestly.
“I did that. Not you.”
There was gossip, slander, isolated, harassment, stalking remember? All when I wasn’t present in the room to “protect” me. Ya know, the kids out here in the world are calling such behavior “cool” these days.
Forgive—don’t forget though. Would that be “wise?”
I’ll admit the path of “authenticity” is one of the more challenging dimensions. Literally, the ownership of existing as ONE out of a 8.3 BILLION other humans. Society determined to misunderstand the rawness of such honesty. Shaming. Judging. Uggh, at times have felt like punches to the gut…throat. Run, hide. Don’t let anyone see you. Fall down + stay there for a bit.
But there’s an unseen force that keeps pushing me to stand back up in the rawness of my personal “truth.” Head held high.
Rough yet well worth it in the end.
The hard featured reality with respect to “AUTHENTICITY,” the worldy population may not always like to admit is there’s also a DUAL side. Human-ness. Imperfect + as a growing, developing mortal also “witnessing” myself on the binary side of the coin.
Umm def not cute.
There was a season existing as an 18 year old kid, feeling very strongly that I was the “it” thang. Had grown to be pretty popular. On the surface I was living my best life. Yet honestly, I was actually enduring my very first true heart break. As a goody-two-shoes, captain of high school sports teams, presidents of clubs, a pretty boring teenager I finally surrendered into partying so hard that SENIOR year of high school. Shewee. Existing in a state of ruthlessness. Gave ZERO F’s.
In direct line of fire was a freshman girl, shining in her pursuit of entering high school. It was lunch. A hacky sack. Me + my cool lil posse intercepted the trending bean bag + mimicked. It was NOT kind. Embarrassing. Hurtful to her…I imagine.
There’s still a level of “ick” that I have sewed upon my living cloak to “remember” every day after. A chosen preference to learn, evolve, grow + not repeat.
“Allowing” a “lesson” because otherwise the shadow within would have grown bigger. Further events causing more harm than good + the deep rooted version of me doesn’t truly desire that. Spending equal amounts of time taking an unfiltered look at one’s self from that lens is far more challenging than one could have ever imagined. Yet also very necessary. Powerful. Purifying.
Eventually, I forgave myself which equally teaches me to forgive others. Yet, in “dual” fashion I have chosen to never forget creating proper boundaries between the inner + outer penumbra’s
When “truth” becomes the largest part of whom we are…freedom is truly the “gold” at the end of the rainbow.
What has helped me (may inspire some ideas of your own):
spending ample time getting to know me. unprocessed. unrefined. uncensored. quiet. solitude. exposing myself to “different” (outside the comfort zone) human experiences. taking note of what “felt” right + what didn’t. reactions. energy. frequency. honoring that. truly a heck of a process. not acehived over night. Personally, 8 years in—committed forever.
courage. harnessing “lion” from wizard of oz. a path as such has potential to take ya up a mountain of magnitude. often times trekking against the grain. the free willing partaker will be misunderstood. mocked. maybe even gossiped about. enduring such requires some spiritual muscle. a puissance that continues to develop with “practice.”
acceptance of surrounding matters such as loneliness, adapting to a me vs. me (you vs. you) mindset whilst simultaneously hushing all others whom suddenly are also vs. you. detachment. discipline. effort. faith. trust (especially in self). pure imagination (willy wonka).
faith. believing in a grandeur in which we cannot always see. much bigger than US while concurrently trusting in self. beginning with an ole mustard seed. am a “believer” that one seed can create a whole damn garden if ya truly desire. Channeling “The Notebook”…”what do YOU want?” Not what everyone else wants but YOU.
action. talking ‘bout it + being ‘bout it are two very distinctly different notions. the lifestyle shows. behaviors. habits. community. etc.
and on the polarizing spectrum if behaviors are questionable, dark + hidden; they are also being unveiled more distinctly than the the mortal even realizes.
“Own it though.” it’s yours. mine. personal. freewill. choices. if ya don’t like it, seek out
another path; also allowed. there are zero guarantees in life + the sooner I integrated that
“truth” I was able to abandon the idea of fixating on outcomes. expectations. simply is,
what it is. accept. navigate. keep going.
Accountability. Shouldering responsibility in spaces that maybe we didn’t show up as our best or settled for way less than we deserved. Could be unintentional responses stemming from unresolved pain that has yet been processed. Undoubtedly, taking time to “own” or “listen” to how something made everyone (including self) feel requires an intricately challenging balance of ego. A course of encountering “ego deaths” recurrently.
The dual side is: just because some folks “feel” negatively about something that is AUTHENTIC to self doesn’t mean one has to resonate. Sure, listen. Alternatively, conjure up strength to gently say “I’m sorry you feel that way within this human exchange—truly, not my intention. I respect your perspective—am storing away this fresh data to ensure within our future engagements I own a better understanding of what feels good and what doesn’t to you personally.”
In all honesty, there have been a handful of times where I didn’t actually resonate but as a LOVER (Virginian)…I cared enough to “allow space” especially when approached with reverence by the other party. Because why not? For this “modus operandi” isn’t damaging to me. If a level of distress becomes “present,” I find great value in taking time to acknowledge, understand + process my “own” emotion. It’s mine therefore my responsibility.
If it reaches a bit of “ridiculousness” I’m allowed to also never “engage” again… which is ok
too.
44 years and counting of human experiences that have embedded said insight within the
“whole” primitive essence of personal existence in its entirety.
Astrological Placements.
A level of understanding in how the energy produced from the solar system (transits, placements, stars, moon, sun, phases) surrounding Planet Earth influences the essence of me. Ya know emotions, how i love, communicate, process + ultimately show up in the world has definitely been more beneficial than at some point in my life I could have ever understood.
Took week one into separation from a husband whom was an Aries and an article that found its way into my algorithm titled “Why a Capricorn should never marry an Aries.” Kid you not, lol. Naturally, I was going to read it. Duh. All the energetic clashing suddenly made sense. After “seeing” there was absolutely no way I could “un-see.” I dove in head first beginning with my birth chart. 8 years in—still very focused on mastering my own personal aspects.
The parts of me that society shamed because it didn’t “look just like them” just so happen to align with the stars. Felt like unlocking a treasure chest as I discovered my authentic blueprint + energetic makeup. Releasing shame + ideology of trying to force myself into boxes that were built by social standards. Fully interconnecting the many levels of ME which ultimately facilitated the ability to more honestly connect with the rest of humanity. Naturally. Comfortably. Confidently.
It was in this particular span when I caught myself saying “damn right, our CREATOR is brilliant. Extremely fascinated with how much thought went into just one human….and there’s 8.3 billion of us.
A huge “believer” that EVERY breathing human has been uniquely, multi-dimensionally designed with purpose, path + destiny accompanied with a “free will choice” to navigate by ways of the world or the more unconventional path specifically fashioned. A trajectory that will never look like another’s + will require faith, surrender, intimate daily relationship with your personal higher belief (unpopular opinion but birthright says you get to choose that).
When Jesus hung out on Planet Earth; he spoke to his CREATOR in the NATURE; not in the temple. At the mountain. Him + the infinite vast sky. Daily. One on one. Engaging in physically unseen energy. Yet fully “feeling” presence. Surrender. Uninfluenced by PEOPLE. Intuitively guided. Authentic. Honest. Kind. Unconditional. Savage when needed (tough love).
His existence serving as a blueprint—map.
In my opinion, there’s far more than just “believing” that he existed + was brutally crucified so that we can be sinners. I immediately feel insulted for Jesus + the path endured every time I have to hear one of the “religious” folks say that sentence. Wanting to scream “C’mon surfacers use some of that God gifted energy to dig a lil deeper.”
Based on the historical narrative, extreme brutality was endured at the hands of other fellow humans. The religious folks at that—all because HE was different than them. They couldn’t understand the authenticity. Honesty. So they destroyed it. Took living breath out of him. Then used some of that “audacity” to adopt him in as their Savior.
Bothers me, honestly. To this day, that mindset still exists. The religious crowds jumping up on the high horse condemning all people that don’t look or act just like them. It’s wild that all these years later, not much has changed.
For me: Jesus is LOVE. Unconditional; something the “world” knows very little about.
Any signs of it + the humanity will destroy it. Period.
Destroying is DARK.
Well at least that’s what I believe. Humble enough to concede that I don’t truly know all the details of what’s what. Right. Wrong. Just a “believer” which is my birthright.
Anyhow back to the PLANETS.
Getting lost in all the right ways on a tangent. One that is highly personal to me.
Ultimately, familiarizing myself with personal planetary details facilitated a broader circuit in ascertaining balance + personifying exclusive personality traits in a more digestible way vs. hanging my head low as I heavily contemplated being so dang different than the larger crowd. A choice my soul has always chosen. Recognizing in many chapters of life, insufferably dulling my genuine veracity—an injustice I also had to forgive myself for.
thing number 5
INSPIRATION
That high vibrational feeling that brings “hope” + “excitement” to one’s world.
There’s many for me.
Oddly enough, reality television is one of those influences.
Real people, real stories with real dreams brave enough to chase after them.
“Dreams” conjured up whilst fully connecting to the soul space—where imagination + creativity have free reign.
Watching shows like “The Voice,” I’ll often hear 1st generation immigrants say: “my parents sacrificed our home in hopes for the American dream” which prompted me into thinking as someone born in the United States “gosh, do I even have my own American dream?”
As a fellow idealist myself, it’s challenging to rationalize what the concept of that BIG aspiration even looks like. How to execute. What to do. Where to go. What to learn. How to build. Truly, another unknown journey.
An adventure—the one of a kind ones.
Just simply asking for one step at a time.
The path unfolds.
Committing to living fully alive in this human experience.
Embracing the idea of endless pathways.
Overcoming “limited”
Shifting into “limitless”
The young ones are best at “dreaming”
My youthful dreams were:
Astronaut (4th grade…see always been connected to the planets)
Fashion Designer (which I still very much plan on accomplishing)
What inspires you? Daydream about? Inner child influenced.
Other modes of personal inspiration:
my kids
thoughts + ideas that stem from an underdog that refuses to “give up”
books
creativity
feel good movies
kindness
seeing progress on the goals I’ve set
positive mantras
spiritual practices that believe in things much bigger than ourselves
etc.
thing number 6
LOVE
Not lust. Not conditional.
Yet unconditional.
Forgiveness.
Boundaries.
Honesty.
Respect.
Friendship.
Communication.
Ability to “see” from other perspectives.
Truly surrounding yourself with people that are genuinely rooting for the absolute best for you.
No hate.
No jealousy.
No behind the scenes trickery while dishonestly smiling in one’s face.
No competition.
Which is UNCOMMON.
Love in today’s society is primarily surrounded by conditions, offerings, hidden agendas, toxic habits, wounded misconceptions, traditional limitations, judgements, third party outside influences, control etc.
Rarely, does the ideology of natural human encounters that which include smiling + exchanging despite color, culture, religion, expectations, social ranking, class etc. exist. There tends to be this trending, inner judgmental classification swirling around within the logistics of the brain without actually taking time in getting to know the fellow earthling.
It’s weird.
Then it sparks the confused human into questioning the brief interaction. Wounds sometimes triggering them to shout from the rooftops “I’m not that” (even though a question wasn’t even asked). Domino effect.
More judgement. More confusion. Unnecessary hurt feelings.
And in all honestly shouldn’t there just be ONE judge? In my world that’s the CREATOR.
Because connection is so odd currently, SOUL TRIBE + SELF-LOVE have become more dominant tendancies in modern days.
Which isn’t horrible.
So if you’re lucky enough to stumble upon humans that truly see you for you, value them.
It’s become a rarity.
thing number 7
SLEEP
not just the act of climbing in the bed.
doom scrolling until you crash then dragging self off that square box into the NEW day.
I mean:
intentional
quality
sleep
deep stages
routine rem cycles
healed + fully restored
BRAINS
a fully charged organ to
operate the “living”
part at maximum capacity.
there’s a science, routine + consistency to it all.
Are you familiar? If not, consider indulging a deep dive into:
Sleep hygiene. Similar to daily hygiene yet as it pertains to preparing the brain for sleep.
Sleep stages. Different ages from birth on up. What’s normal. Abnormal. Essential.
Your local sleep labs, physicians + consider having your “sleep” studied. You’ll get 6 hours of EEG, EMG, EKG, EOG, O2; detailed report regarding sleep onset, quality of sleep based on how deep the brain goes, awakenings, what caused them etc.
*Hint: Definitely seek out those 5 star MD’s vs. the 2 star ones. You’ll thank me later.
It’s never too early to learn how to master sleep. Actually, the younger the better. Sleep is the greatest holistic tool for a growing, developing + emotional brain.
If you have questions or experiences you’d like to share within your own sleep journey, feel free to send an email curiouslywritten1682@gmail.com and maybe I can assist with some insight.
thing number 8
RE-WIRING THE SUB-CONSCIOUS
Umm, do what?
But first, let’s truly dissect what the SUB-CONSCIOUS actually is.
I mean there’s a mild jist of what we know it to be, right?
Background noise. Less front + center. Automatic thought + functioning based on repetition, conditioning, habits, influence, trauma, fight or flight. A sense of “knowing, action, reaction” without truly thinking about it. Natural. Ultimately, developed by “everything” life up to this moment. The second nature vibe. Routine. Habit.
Mine existed more so in a state of FIGHT or FLIGHT.
Survival.
Can’t TRUST humans.
Neglect.
A state of constantly “giving” to others because “self” had zero value. Living had “conditions.”
Zero value stemming from the abusive, toxic environment I was developed in.
Words that were said. Behaviors. Hostility. Exhaustion. Not safe. Lies.
Inherently, I would still be navigating subconsciously from that state of cognizance if I hadn’t re-wired my personal neural pathways. Reverse, release, transmute. Re-train my brain from a NEW state of incarnation centered on my very own choosing vs. allowing what was chosen at birth by other fellow characters that carry titles + unspoken agency such as: mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, sister, brother, uncle, cousins, tradition, religion, lifestyle, habits, etc.
It’s work. effort.
But there’s tools.
Amazingly, today’s world hosts inventive CREATORS that embed love, intention + positive, empowering words into the background of meditation music. We call these subliminal meditations.
Within my personal journey the UNIVERSE kindly placed one particular creative onto my path back in 2019. Recognized on YouTube as: https://youtube.com/@magnetizeyourself?si=cZGwEckNDlqT2PWn where she talks about “life, love, spirituality + of course the law of attraction.” Whom also has developed an app with a plethora of subliminal meditations she personally created to re-wire the subconscious ranging from “Quit Smoking” to “Train your brain to enjoy exercise” to “Dream Job” “Manifesting” etc.
Subjectively, a necessity in the weekly content diet.
I mix it up.
Listen mainly while I’m at work.
AirPods in the ear enabling the “focus” music to play in the background.
Next thing I know, naturally I find myself discovering the next steps in actualizing.
Impressive. Powerful. Honestly.
Check it out if ya want:
*7 day free trial if ya just curious:
Disclaimer:
Be prepared for naturally ushering in CHANGE within mindset, overcoming obstacles, fears, doubts that will ultimately lead you to the “next step” in what you are choosing to achieve. Don’t force. Use intuition. Sometimes I only have capacity to listen to just one per week because a level of integration also takes place and occurs in its own timing.
Orrrrrrrrrrrrr
take your own journey + see what “frequencies” resonate with you. encouraging utilizing the tool of discernment.
Binaural Beats
Isochronic Tones
Solfeggio Frequencies
are also “resources” I find myself idulging in…
thing number 9
DETERMINATION
The attitude of:
“can’t stop, won’t stop”
“fall down, get back up”
“don’t quit”
“I can do hard things”
“if it were easy, everyone would be doing it”
“best views are at the top of the hardest climb”
“get comfortable being uncomfortable”
“keep going”
“diamonds form under pressure”
RESOURCES:
Motiversity: https://youtu.be/VAt4NbwuShk?is=v-VsXG0X9xFvkhze
Audible: access to many book titles
*For NEW subscriptions currently ya get 3 months free + $20 Audible credit
“7 Habits of Highly Effective People”
“12 rules For Life”
“The Science of Self-Discipline”
are just a few of the many titles I’ve indulged in.
there’s tons. dive in.
search: determination, motivations, self-improvement, spirituality,
discipline and see what you personally discover.
I also love recommendations. lemme know…
thing number 10
WHOLENESS
Otherwise, known as:
Full circle embodiment of self
“Complete” exactly as you are
No longer needing approval nor validation from “outside” of self
Confident
Unbothered
Content
Sleeps well at night from the level of PEACE within
Acceptance of entire human experience
Light + Dark in its fullness
Baseline nature
An understanding that all the answers are within—not outside of me
Imagine a circle.
The journey beginning at the top.
Traverse the circle. Walk it.
Navigate. Eventually finding yourself
back at the top. Full circle.
Repeat.
Is how I’ve understood myself maneuvering “wholeness.” Each completed lap representing a new level of all the above.
“As within, so without”…
It all begins with self + it’s never too late.
Happy Journeying Humanity.
XoXo -J 😘
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